My life is sometimes strange. Not three months ago, I could count for you on one hand the amount of days I truly looked forward to. I mean of course I look forward to my photo shoots. And, I am not so depressed that I never want to get out of bed. But, everyday is pretty much like the last. So, it's not so much that I didn't look forward to tomorrow as much as I was indifferent.

Now, I look forward to everyday. I have already spoken about my job before and I do love it. That helped to put me in a better place in my head. But, then, I met a young woman that makes everyday very interesting. We are not going out, nor have we been on a date. Right now, we are 'friends.' And, it's pretty great. She's funny, smart, quirky.... She makes me laugh, and then she makes me crazy. Sometimes, I want to just squeeze her. Others, she's driving up the wall as we match wits and verbally spar. And, on top of that she's very nice to look at. Beautiful brown eyes, great smile.... Grrr. But, I did mention that she's a young woman. And, as a result, she thinks I'm too old to date cause she's closer to 21 than 30 and I'm the opposite.

I mentioned that my life is strange.... I say that because even though she SAYS I'm too old, as of late she has been pretty much making long term plans with me. Lot's of 'we' conversations. So, I'm at a loss. My gut says that women are generally careful about how they phrase things to people that they know are interested in them when they are not interested in return. Never say things that can be taken in any other way than, "we are friends and that's IT."

So, what am I talking about? Well, lately she's gotten into the habit of tackling me, pinning me down and relentlessly tickling me. Sometimes, she's very incredibly violent, I have many bruises as a result. Moving on, so I'm getting tickled and I say, "ok, you gotta stop. I'm gonna focus on becoming not ticklish now." Her reply is, "Awww, and I always wanted a ticklish boyfriend." Then, another day, I take her to lunch and we go do something together. Which really isn't much different than any other day. As I'm taking her home, I am telling her that I'm going to hang out with another friend that night. She says, "Oh I see how it is, go on a date with me, then go pick up another woman?" Date? This is not the only instances either. I just don't know if I can trust my guts here. My guts are saying, she is changing her mind about me and my age. But my mind is saying, I don't know anything and I better just not do anything stupid.... My life is strange.